Facing Envy and Bitterness

“Truly God is good to Israel, to those whose hearts are pure.

But as for me, I almost lost my footing. My feet were slipping, and I was almost gone.

For I envied the proud when I saw them prosper despite their wickedness. They seem to live such painless lives; their bodies are so healthy and strong. They don’t have troubles like other people; they’re not plagued with problems like everyone else. They wear pride like a jeweled necklace and clothe themselves with cruelty. These fat cats have everything their hearts could ever wish for! They scoff and speak only evil; in their pride they seek to crush others. They boast against the very heavens, and their words strut throughout the earth.

And so the people are dismayed and confused, drinking in all their words.

“What does God know?” they ask. “Does the Most High even know what’s happening?” Look at these wicked people— enjoying a life of ease while their riches multiply.

Did I keep my heart pure for nothing? Did I keep myself innocent for no reason? I get nothing but trouble all day long; every morning brings me pain. If I had really spoken this way to others, I would have been a traitor to your people.

So I tried to understand why the wicked prosper.

But what a difficult task it is!

Then I went into your sanctuary, O God, and I finally understood the destiny of the wicked. Truly, you put them on a slippery path and send them sliding over the cliff to destruction. In an instant they are destroyed, completely swept away by terrors. When you arise, O Lord, you will laugh at their silly ideas as a person laughs at dreams in the morning.

Then I realized that my heart was bitter, and I was all torn up inside. I was so foolish and ignorant— I must have seemed like a senseless animal to you.

Yet:

I still belong to you; you hold my right hand.

You guide me with your counsel,

leading me to a glorious destiny.

Whom have I in heaven but you?

I desire you more than anything on earth.

My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever. Those who desert him will perish, for you destroy those who abandon you. But as for me, how good it is to be near God! I have made the Sovereign Lord my shelter, and I will tell everyone about the wonderful things you do.
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭73:1-28‬ ‭NLT‬‬

The problem with envy is we don’t really see into the heart of those we envy. Into the dark of the night when no one else is around them, when the parties are over and they are alone. We don’t hear their thoughts or see their fears or anxieties. We don’t experience the energy it takes to keep the story going or the fear of losing control. The fear of “losing the good life” that motivates to always be searching for the next dollar or the next “better-than-anyone-else.”

As with the author of this Psalm, we too can almost lose our footing. We too can question the presence, care, love, and the protection of God. “They don’t love or serve God! Why are they prospering...in perfect health and I’m not?” “Why have I given up everything and have nothing in return?”

Easy to do when our focus is on the “here and now”,  when we try to reason what is beyond our reasoning and comprehension. It’s exhausting and can lead us into the entangled path of bitterness.

Psalm 69 tells us:

• Those who trust in their wealth and boast in their great riches cannot pay a ransom to God for his life.
• The wise, foolish and senseless all perish alike and leave their wealth to others.
• Their forms will decay in the grave, but God will redeem my life from the grave.  (Psalm 49:8-9) Redemption does not come so easily, for no one can ever pay enough to live forever and not see the grave.
• Don’t be overawed when a man grows rich, when the splendor of his house increases, for he will take nothing with him when he dies. Their wealth will not follow them into the grave. Death has no use for money or possessions!
• He will never see the “light of life”.

When we finally surrender and turn our thoughts, attention, and hearts back to the safety and peace of God’s sanctuary the lenses we are looking through change.

When we take our eyes off man and back to God...when we allow Him to search our hearts He will reveal the root of our struggles. Bitterness is it’s ugly name.

We remember we are only passing through this world. God has given us pleasures in this world to enjoy but not to define us. This is only our temporary residence and as beautiful or alluring it’s temptations are, it is nothing compared to what He has prepared for us in eternity!

May we say as David, “Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered – how fleeting my life is. And so, Lord where do I put my hope? My only hope is you.” Psalm 39:4,7

At the end of the day I stand on the promises that are back by his name (Psalm 138:2):

“I still belong to you; you hold my right hand.

You guide me with your counsel,

leading me to a glorious destiny.

Whom have I in heaven but you?

I desire you more than anything on earth.

My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.”

Words unspoken

Good grief why did I just say that?  Why did I feel I had to say something that wasn't true to get out of a situation?  And the words came so easily...too easy!

Truth was I really didn't have to say anything and it would have been ok, so why did I feel the need to 'explain'?

The hearer of my words didn't know any different and my words had no ill effect on them, yet the nagging hurt in my heart was still there.  It was because my disappointment was not from the person I was talking to but rather the heart of God, his spirit was grieving inside me.

A good friend of mine often says, "words unspoken don't have to be retracted."

May this be the cry of my heart every day...multiple times throughout the day:

O lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. 

You know what I am going to say even before I say it, lord. 

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. 

Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life. (Psalms 139:1, 4, 23, 24 NLT)

Take control of what I say, O lord, and guard my lips. Don’t let me drift toward evil or take part in acts of wickedness. Don’t let me share in the delicacies of those who do wrong. (Psalms 141:3, 4 NLT)

I pray my words always reflect truth and the spirit living within me.

Seasonal Planting

I said, ‘Plant the good seeds of righteousness, and you will harvest a crop of love. Plow up the hard ground of your hearts, for now is the time to seek the Lord, that he may come and shower righteousness upon you.’ (Hosea 10:12 NLT)

I love living in an area where we can enjoy all four seasons!  It is exciting seeing green sprouts bursting forth from cool earth; planting a new garden; color replacing brown and barren landscapes; the smell of first mowed grass; chats with neighbors; long walks; and sitting on the deck under the warmth of the sun.  

Fall brings gorgeous hews of warm colors; cool, crisp and invigorating days filled with energy to prepare for the hardness of winter; fall harvest festivals; and the anticipation of Holidays spent with family and friends. Winter brings times of rest from outside projects and focusing on inside projects and the warm glow of the fireplace while snuggled under my blanket on the recliner reading or watching a movie with a hot cup of cocoa or tea. 

The seasons of our lives are very much in sync with the seasons of the earth.  We plant seeds in the spring/summer of our lives when we are young, fresh, rejuvenated, and ready to face any storm that might be on the horizon. Those seeds could be times of investments in preparing for marriage; or in raising our young children; or spending time navigating young family life with other couples.  As in the springtime, we may not see the immediate results of these plantings but the seeds of investments are ready to spring forth from the dead casings they have been in. 

Other times we are in the fall/winter of our lives when we are exhausted and weary from the weeds-trials that have grown in our lives among our good crops sewn. The elements of trials and heartaches beat down on us sometimes to the point of surrender. Children gone astray, marriages falling apart, loss of elderly parents or of spouses can become part of the barren landscape of our winters.  Yet as with winter wheat* this is the perfect environment needed for trust and faith to take root in our hearts.

Our summer soil (hearts) need just the right amount of sun and rain so new growth can take place from new seedlings and ones planted for the future. Too much heat burns the crop; too much rain drowns and rots the seed.

Our winter soil (hearts) can become hard from the distance of the suns warmth and the snow and ice. Yet the coldness & snow is needed to help insulate the roots of bulbs resting that have yet to produce once the thawing starts in the spring.

My point is there can be growth in any season we are in. Growth comes from struggles, hurts and pain that can at times become unbearable to stand under...alone.  Seeds have to struggle to burst forth from dead protective casings of fear and hopelessness. Our struggles provide the perfect environment where the painful toiling of the Holy Spirit can bring life back into our hearts if we let him.  

The life lessons we learn through the toiling cannot be taught through a book or observing others.  Personal harvests produces peace and contentment out of bitterness, hope replaces discouragement, and rest replaces strife and anxiousness.

In all seasons, Lord, may my heart be pliable soil so the fruit of your spirit may take hold, deeply rooted so the storms won't destroy the crops you want to harvest in my life. Keep the weeds of complaining and bitterness from taking root and strangling the work you are trying to do in my heart. May the harvest be 100 fold for your glory and honor.

*Winter wheat is a crop plant that is cultivated from September to December in the Northern Hemisphere. Winter wheat sprouts before freezing occurs, then becomes dormant until the soil warms in the spring.  It is ready to be harvested by early July.   Without this wheat we wouldn't have the flour used for making breads since it is a heartier wheat.

Gateway to our heart

David said "I will be careful to live a blameless life— when will you come to help me? I will lead a life of integrity in my own home. I will refuse to look at anything vile and vulgar. I hate all who deal crookedly; I will have nothing to do with them. (Psalms 101:2, 3 NLT)

David knew our eyes are the gateway to our heart and what comes out of our mouth and through our actions reveal the condition of our heart. Would the Holy Spirit want to make his dwelling in my heart?  The Holy Spirit is not destitute that he must accept any condition for a home. He has the whole universe and beyond as a dwelling place.

It is at his prompting and revelation about our sinful nature to us that we accept what Jesus has done for us and ask him to make his dwelling in us. Through our submission to him He reveals our sinful nature to us and our hearts housecleaning begins.

And then he (Jesus) added, “It is what comes from inside that defiles you. For from within, out of a person’s heart, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, wickedness, deceit, lustful desires, envy, slander, pride, and foolishness. All these vile things come from within; they are what defile you.” (Mark 7:20-23 NLT)

What happens after our hearts are cleaned is as critical as the prior acknowledgement they need cleaned.

"This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!" (2 Corinthians 5:17 NLT)

How does this work in our life?

1.  We are made new because of what Jesus has done for us. Change must come from the inside out. Don't make the mistake of comparing yourself to anyone. (Romans 3:22)

            There is no such thing as good, better or perfect Christian no matter what gifts or works God has called us to do.  We are all equal in Gods eyes.  He is our standard to live by...no one else.

2.  Make the Word the foundation for transforming and renewing your mind from worldly standards to Gods. (Romans 12:2; 8:5-9) Read the word....meditate (think about it through out your day)...memorize the word...ask the Holy Spirit to make it real...learn how to apply it daily in your life through daily circumstances.

3. The Holy Spirit now lives within us teaching and bringing correction when needed. LISTEN!

            Becoming a new person means growth.  Growth comes through stretching, like the tearing of a muscle in body building.  Growth usually comes through trials. We were never promised a carefree life as a follower of Jesus. Quite the contrary because we now live in conflict with the values and morals of the world in which we live. (Romans 5:1-5)

4.  We are no longer under any obligation to sin or its power. All comes down to choice. (Romans 6, 7:14-8:1,12) Old habits can be changed to new healthy habits. Can't do it on your own, ask the Holy Spirit to help and he will!  Don't give up!!

5.  Live a joy filled life to safeguard your faith. 

            "Whatever happens, my dear brothers and sisters, rejoice in the Lord. I never get tired of telling you these things, and I do it to safeguard your faith." (Philippians 3:1 NLT)

How? "Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you." (Philippians 4:6-9 NLT)

So what, or whom, is guarding the gateway to your heart and mine today?

Home or Office?

I have heard the phrase, "invite Jesus into your heart" ever since I was a little girl. We automatically assume Jesus, through his Holy Spirit, would want to live in our hearts, but does he?

Have we created an open door he would want to come through?  Have we created a home atmosphere or an office?

Some characteristics of a home and office are:
    HOME....................OFFICE

Warmly greeted at the door.......... Time clock punched at the door

Comfortable furniture so guests stay.....One chair per desk to limit interaction

Reflects the personality of those living there .....Reflects the style and                          atmosphere of management

A home needs a family.....Office needs workers

Love makes a home.....Organization makes an office

Love driven.....Performance driven

Unconditional welcome.....Longevity depends upon performance

So what does the office analogy have to do with our hearts?  Glad you asked!  Do we treat our relationship with God in the atmosphere of home or office?  Do we feel we have to perform in order to win Gods payment of love and acceptance?  Is our relationship only when we are at church or doing a particular ministry (punching the proverbial 'religious' time clock) or is it a true 24/7 relationship?  Is it easier for us to have a task list we check off or do we truly enjoy and look forward to our quiet times (nurturing a relationship) with God?  Are we aware of his presence 24/7 with joy or drudgery?

Do we enjoy being with others that belong to his family or do we count the minutes until we can leave 'work' and return to 'our' lifestyle?  Do we have the same unconditional love of our Father in seeking and welcoming others into the family or do we just tolerate those around us and pray God sends someone else to talk with the lost we come in contact with daily? 

Jesus said, "Those who accept my commandments and obey them are the ones who love me. And because they love me, my Father will love them. And I will love them and reveal myself to each of them. All who love me will do what I say. My Father will love them, and we will come and make our home with each of them." (John 14:21, 23 NLT)

Our actions will show the choice of whether we have a home or office to welcome God to live in.

Which would you or I want to live in?

A Watchman In Prayer

Listen to my voice in the morning, Lord.
    Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly. Psalm 5:3

This verse has always inspired and moved me to belief-action.  When I begin to feel as though my prayers are just words I am always reminded of David and his burning passion and intimacy with God.  This reminder was not just David’s but is as necessary for us today as is breathing for our physical bodies.

Do we really pray expecting God to answer or do we wait until the answer is known before we become expectant?

God spoke through the prophet Isaiah, “I publicly proclaim bold promises.    I do not whisper obscurities in some dark corner. I would not have told the people of Israel to seek me I could not be found.  I, the Lord, speak only what is true and declare only what is right.” (Is 45:19)

“Listen! The Lord’s arm is not too weak to save you, nor is his ear too deaf to hear you call.” (Is 59:1)

Micah declared, “As for me, I look to the Lord for help. I wait confidently for God to save me, and my God will certainly hear me.” Micah 7:7 

Today can we really trust God will hear us, even want to hear us?  Is his ear only bent toward some and not others?

Expectantly in Psalm 5:3 means to look out or about, spy, keep watch, observe, watch, watch closely.  This is similar to a watchman on the city walls looking intently and waiting expectantly.

What does a watchman do?

1.  Stays alert

 AT ALL TIMES……“Keep alert at all times. And pray that you might be strong enough to escape these coming horrors and stand before the Son of Man.” (Luke 21:36)

IN PERSISTENCE….. And so I tell you keep on asking, and you will receive…Keep on seeking, and you will find…Keep on knocking and the door will be open.” (Lk 11:9-10); Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere. (Eph 6:18)

WITH A THANKFUL HEART… Devote yourselves to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart. (Col 4:2)

  

2.  Announces what he sees/hears

OPPOSITION…Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8

VICTORY… You were dead because of your sins…Then God made you alive with Christ, for he forgave all our sins.  He canceled the record of the charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross.  In this way, he disarmed the spiritual rulers and authorities.  He shamed them publicly by his victory over them on the cross. Col 2:1-15

 3.  Keeps guard of an entrance

TO THE HEART…Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life. 1 Corinthians 16:13

TO THE MIND…Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Phil 4:7

TO THE MOUTH…Take control of what I say, O Lord, and guard my lips.
 Don’t let me drift toward evil or take part in acts of wickedness.
Don’t let me share in the delicacies (gossip??) of those who do wrong. Ps 141:3-4

4.  Sits high above so he can see over what he guards

THERE IS NO OTHER POWER OR AUTHORITY ABOVE OUR GOD… Now he is far above any ruler or authority or power or leader or anything else—not only in this world but also in the world to come. Ephesians 1:21

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. Matthew 6:33

And since we have a great High Priest who rules over God’s house, let us go right into the presence of God with sincere hearts fully trusting him. For our guilty consciences have been sprinkled with Christ’s blood to make us clean, and our bodies have been washed with pure water.

Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise. Hebrews 10:21-23

Putting the cart before the horse

"You will be changed into a different person. After these signs take place, do what must be done, for God is with you. Then go down to Gilgal ahead of me. I will join you there to sacrifice burnt offerings and peace offerings. You must wait for seven days until I arrive and give you further instructions.” 

Meanwhile, Saul stayed at Gilgal, and his men were trembling with fear.  Saul waited there seven days for Samuel, as Samuel had instructed him earlier, but Samuel still didn’t come. Saul realized that his troops were rapidly slipping away.  So he demanded, “Bring me the burnt offering and the peace offerings!” And Saul sacrificed the burnt offering himself.

 Just as Saul was finishing with the burnt offering, Samuel arrived. Saul went out to meet and welcome him,  but Samuel said, “What is this you have done?”

 “How foolish!” Samuel exclaimed. “You have not kept the command the Lord your God gave you. Had you kept it, the Lord would have established your kingdom over Israel forever.  But now your kingdom must end, for the Lord has sought out a man after his own heart. The Lord has already appointed him to be the leader of his people, because you have not kept the Lord’s command.” (1 Samuel 10b-8;13:7-14 NLT)

Through Samuel, God gave Saul just enough instruction and insight into a future vision of the role he was to play in Israel.  Would Saul be willing and ready to be King of a people chosen by God to show and live his character before other nations?  Would Saul be willing to follow God’s leading and timing even though he might not understand it? Saul put the “cart before the horse” and all hopes and dreams of what he could have been and accomplished was gone. 

I think of this account when I ask God to give me dreams of what he wants to be and do through me.  God, give me just enough that I can’t figure it out before your timing or before you have prepared me to follow and not manipulate to take the lead.  Give me reminders of the dream to keep me from becoming impatient or discouraged by keeping my heart open and focused on the Giver of dreams.

Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires. Psalm 37:4

I grew up with something that is almost unheard of today. For some in my family it was a great source of embarrassment but for me it was the norm, all I ever knew until I was in 7th grade. I grew up in a small town and although we were not the only ones with this, it still wasn’t in the typical home. While some might be familiar with this in camping situations, it would definitely not be characteristic for most 21st century Americans. What I am referring to is an outhouse. In the summer the trips to the outhouse would be quick because of the heat and in the winter they would even be quicker because of the cold. At night, my mother had a chamber bucket in our cellar of which she would make the trip every morning to empty in the outhouse.

Today I have 3 ½ baths in my home…guess you could say, “you’ve come a long way baby!”

I’ve recently been thinking of that old outhouse and have found some valuable lessons in it. Believe it or not we all have lived with the affects of an outhouse in our lives.

ONE OUTHOUSE RUNOFF AFFECTS OTHERS
We live in a domino world. Everything we do has an effect on someone else. Whether intentional or not we sometimes find ourselves living with the “stench” of others choices which has the potential of horrendous impact on our lives. Most times how much of an impact is determined by how much power we choose to give them.
The apostle Paul didn’t allow others actions to deter or determine his mission.
“Everything that has happened to me here has helped to spread the Good News…everyone here…knows I am in chains because of Christ. It is true that some are preaching out of jealousy and rivalry…intending to make my chains more painful to me. But that doesn’t matter…the message about Christ is being preached either way, so I rejoice.” Philippians 1
Paul chose to take the higher road and rejoice thereby diffusing the potential effect of others on his life and outlook.

CLEANING TIME
To keep the refuse at a manageable level, from time to time a company would come to empty the outhouse.
Paul knew the heart has to be cleansed of the refuse we allow to filter in: pride, self-righteousness, position and prestige, money, complacency, etc.
“I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done…I have discarded everything else counting it all as garbage*, so that I could gain Christ and become like him.” Philippians 3:7-11
Jesus said, “But the words you speak come from the heart—that’s what defiles you. For from the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, all sexual immorality, theft, lying, and slander.” Matthew 15:17-19
*Greek: sku/balon which means refuse, the excrement (dung) of animals = crap

HOUSE MOVING TIME
When the outhouse was moved what was left behind became a wonderful source of fertilizer. When it seems like there is no way out remember this, we won’t always have to live with the effects someone else’s refuse. “If you think you are standing strong, be careful, for you, too, may fall into the same sin. But remember that the temptations that come into your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will keep the temptation from becoming so strong that you can't stand up against it.” 1 Corinthians 10:12-13
Rather than complaining about the outhouse being moved and the emptiness left behind, my father planted a garden. Not just any garden but with all that fertilizer his was always the best garden on the block! Rather than complaining about the residual of the domino affects in our lives use them as fertilizer to produce a bountiful harvest. Jesus never promised a “no-fertilized” life, but he did promise if we remain in him we would produce fruit—no matter what was put into our soil. (John 15)

Good Stuff Cheap…

“Good stuff cheap” is not only the mantra of a well known store chain but in this economic climate has become the desire of just about every shopper I know. I don’t know about you, but for me I absolutely hate to pay full retail price for anything! The overwhelming crowds that forfeit sleep on Black Friday to get a “good stuff cheap” are certainly testimony to this mantra. We all want to be generous in the Christmas gift giving season, yet we also don’t want to die early deaths because of the credit card bills that start arriving January 1st!

I was thinking about this mantra when I read John 14 (NLT version) recently.  One of the best gifts we could ever receive and encourage others to accept is so simplistic yet we work overtime to complicate.

I’m talking about peace of mind and heart.  In the current climate of jobs and homes being lost; sickness and disease going unchecked or not cared for with no health insurance coverage; families stressed and marriages dissolving because of underlying financial struggles the words “peace of mind and heart” seem foreign if not a cliché.  So what does peace of mind and heart look like?  How in the midst of all this chaos can that be accomplished?

YouTube has a video of Bob Newhart counseling with two words, “STOP IT” (see link at bottom)

This video came to mind when reading Jesus words about peace of mind and heart.  John 14 starts with, “Don’t let your hearts be troubled.  Trust in God, and trust also in me…..Just believe (vs 11).   Period.

“I am leaving you with a gift-peace of mind and heart.  And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give.  So don’t be troubled or afraid.” (vs27)  Again, simplicity, but how we/I complicate the gift with “buts”.  Just believe—PERIOD!  Accept His gift of peace of mind and heart—PERIOD!  Don’t worry or be afraid—PERIOD!  My peace should not be based upon the way the world tells me to have peace (“just buy something new”; “just eat more comfort food/indulge in your favorite drink” or “just think about yourself”).

Paul said in Philippians 4, “Don’t worry instead pray about everything.  Tell God what you need and thank Him for all he has done.  Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand.  His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”

Paul continues to tell us how to do this, “Fix (determine or strengthen) your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable.  Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise…then the God of peace will be with you.”

Fear starts in the mind then transcends to the heart (our seat of emotions, actions).  In the same manner, peace starts in the mind then transcends to the heart and is also displayed through our actions.

We may not be able to change our current circumstances but one thing we can change is what we think and dwell on.  No one else can impose this on us; that is our choice to change.  This will determine and affect our emotional, physical and spiritual well being.  Jesus told the disciples (and us today) there will be hard times we must go through.   “I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me.  Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows.  But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33).

This gift cost Jesus everything, but to us it is free.  Good stuff cheap?  Can’t get any better than that!